Canadian singer Alanis Morissette has opened up about her battle with postpartum depression.
“There are days I’m debilitated to the point where I can barely move,” the 43-year-old Ottawa native told People.
“I push through being debilitated by knowing that I have to provide and show up, because I see my little kids’ faces.”
Morissette welcomed daughter Onyx on June 23, 2016 and had son Ever in December 2010.
Her latest delivery was easier (“she flew out,” Morissette said) than her first (a 25-hour labour!) but she felt the same depression.
“I had a pretty good sense that it was going to happen again and I was at the ready,” Morissette recalled.
“After Ever’s birth, about a year and four months, that was when I spoke to a doctor for the first time who said, ‘This isn’t going to get any better. Let’s bring you in and have an actual conversation about what might help you.’”
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The “You Oughta Know” singer said she felt physical pain, insomnia, lethargy and “horrifyingly scary” visions of her family being harmed.
“There’s a lot of sleeplessness,” she explained. “Sleep is hard to come by.”
Morissette has help from husband Mario "Souleye" Treadway.
“I want to keep as much semblance of normalcy for my kids as I can,” she said.
“I don’t want it to be their burden.”