Ariana Grande Says 2018 Was 'Worst' Year Of Her Life

Ariana Grande said Thursday she finds it interesting that 2018 has been one of the best years of her music career – “and the worst of my life.”

Accepting the Woman of the Year award at the Billboard Women in Music event, the pop star said it’s been “a very conflicting” year.

"I just want to say if you're someone out there who has no idea what this next chapter is going to bring, you’re not alone in that,” Grande said.

“A lot of people would look at someone in my position right now as an artist that could be at her peak and think, 'She’s really got her s**t together, she's really on it. She’s got it all.’

“And I do, but as far as my personal life goes, I really have no idea what the f**k I’m doing.”

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Grande, who mourned the loss of her ex Mac Miller this year and ended an engagement to Pete Davidson, insisted she is “really looking forward to embracing whatever happens and whatever comes my way.”

The 25-year-old added: “I look forward to hopefully learning to give some of the love and forgiveness that I've given away so frivolously and easily to men in the past to myself, hopefully, this year.

“I have everything I've ever dreamt of having, and as of late I've discovered that it's the things I've always had and the people I've always had that still make me the happiest.”