#LifeWithCharlie - I May Not Remember But She Does.
I don’t know if these things just suddenly come to Charlie or if she’s simply kept them to herself all this time.
Last night for example, I told her not to play with my phone so she didn’t accidentally call 911...AGAIN 😐
Her response GUTTED me.
“How did I do that anyway?! Weren’t you drunk!?”
At the time, I truly didn’t think she really knew what was happening. I didn’t think she understood ‘drunk’.
So foolish of me. Kids know s**t. Especially this kid.
She has mentioned a few other things that happened while I was ‘under the influence’ and it breaks my heart. I know exactly what it feels like to be a kid around booze. It’s scary, really.
Guilt, shame and regret are all part of (my) recovery, though. It just reminds me why I’m doing what I’m doing.
Just her saying the word, ‘drunk’ is all the fuel I need to keep on keepin’ on.
Today I am #470DaysDry. There’s no turning back now.
***I should also note, she didn’t call 911 BECAUSE I was drunk...She actually accidentally called pressing too many buttons***